Fifteen Months

A Formal Apology

Jerry — Sun, 20 Sep 2009 06:22:45 +0000

I’ve been a terrible husband. I’ve made my wife feel that spending any time outside of her room is somehow going to make me feel bad. This is not the case. I need for her to have a life of her own through the time we’re separated. I need to know that she isn’t hiding from the world in her room.

I need her to know that I love her. I need her to know that I trust her and that I stand behind her. I need her to know that I am sorry for making her feel like she needed to withdraw from her life there.

I’ve been a terrible husband. Through my comments I have made my wife feel uncertain. This is unconscionable. My job is to support her. To bolster her. To see her through the hard times. I haven’t done a very good job of that. For the most part, I’ve tossed that part of what we are down the drain.

This is a formal apology. I’m sorry baby. I should have thought through what I said. I should have done more to support you.

I should have done more, but I didn’t.

I’ll try to do better. Just promise me you won’t sit n yur room and wait for the world to catch up with you. You need time for yourself and I’m glad that you have it.

I love you with all my heart.

Don’t You Forget About Me (Extended)

Jerry — Mon, 14 Sep 2009 05:44:27 +0000

Quite honestly, I try not to be insecure. Still, my wife is 7,000 plus miles away, surrounded by men, not all of whom are as ethical as I would like. While I trust her implicitly, I don’t know these men and I trust them half as far as I can throw them.

To my wife’s credit, she associates with married couples and the girls from logistics. (This last makes me very happy, I might add.) As for me, I stick to family. it’s a safe place to be, without a chance to provide the wrong vibe or in any other way send a message other than “hey…. I’m taken”.

Do the dedication for the past few days is this:

Simple Minds – Don’t You (Forget About Me) (Extended)

WTF? A Daily Dedication Inside a Real Post

Jerry — Fri, 11 Sep 2009 05:26:40 +0000

This blog teeters at the verge of being redundant at times, but that’s really not my intention. I know I needto update, but then I talk to my lovely and most beautiful wife online and have no real need to update this space, because she already knows what’s happening in our lives.

This defeats the purpose of the thing, though.

This blog isn’t here just for my wife. it’s here to represent the thousands of military families that suffer through the loss of a loved on every day. it’s our job. It’s our duty. It sucks, but we endure. It’s our lot in life.

For us however, things are not going according to plan. we have unexpected drama in our lives that should not exist. It complicates things. For tonight, my thoughts are muddled and there is no real end in sight.

So here’s my dedication, late though it may be. It just fits my mood right now:

It may not be easy, but we’ll get there, even if we take the long way home…

Daily Dedications – You Spin Me Round

Jerry — Mon, 07 Sep 2009 05:37:46 +0000

Like a record, baby!

Dope – You Spin Me Round (like a record)

Daily Dedications – When You Close Your Eyes

Jerry — Sat, 05 Sep 2009 17:25:40 +0000

I heard this song on the radio yesterday morning and it made me think of my wife. I’m missing you bunches today, baby.

All my love. I’ll see you soon!

Night Ranger – When You Close Your Eyes

Daily Dedication part deux – Your Man

Jerry — Wed, 02 Sep 2009 04:08:43 +0000

I realized I missed a day of dedications. I’ll make up for that right this minute. he says what I wish I’d thought up on my own : Josh Turner – Your Man

Daily Dedications – Still Loving You

Jerry — Tue, 01 Sep 2009 15:29:23 +0000

Probably the best love song ever, done with a full orchestra. Love you baby!

The Scorpions/Berliner Philharmoniker/Christian Kolonovits – Still Loving You

Feeling better, a Daily Dedication

Jerry — Mon, 31 Aug 2009 05:56:10 +0000

We’ve both been on the stressed out side the past few days. It’s easy to get into a funk when you are thousands of miles from the ones you love. sometimes it’s best just to do something that makes you feel good.

Carlos Santana Feat. Steven Tyler

She says I’m her hero – Daily Dedications

Jerry — Sat, 29 Aug 2009 17:27:29 +0000

My wife says that I’m her hero. I know that she is mine. So i suppose this is for both of us.

I Love you Sgt.

Enrique Iglesias – Hero (live)

Ugh

Jerry — Sat, 29 Aug 2009 15:56:29 +0000

I’ve not been a great husband. I’m supposed to update this space daily, but have been speaking to my wife every night, so I forget sometimes that I have obligations here as well. Top that off with the screaming aches and pains I have from the recent juniper massacre and it all adds up to a man who would rather be lying on the sofa than sitting at his desk.

(Yes, I’m that sore)

In lieu of having anything real or meaningful to post here today, I’m just going to post a picture of our resident tree monkey. Here’s Lil’ D. He fought that tree all day to get where he was in this picture.

I didn't know they had monkeys in this part of the world!

Of course, getting down was more of a problem than getting up…